Rush

Last Saturday, I was praying almost the whole day. The deadline for the UPCAT forms is just a few days away, and my mother still didn't know all about it. I was planning not to say it at all, but I was unable to save the money for the examination fee, so I have to tell it to her, or I won't be ablt to take the examination ever.

The reason why I don't want to tell it to my mother is because she doesn't want me to study college in Manila. I don't want to elaborate more about it, but a word that would best describe her reason is 'over-protectiveness'.

So I arrange the requirements all by myself, the only problem is the fee. I was anxious and worried that Saturday because Ayyah's mom would be passing the forms in UPD on Monday. Even my friends were wishing--and perhaps, praying--that my mom will allow me.

When I got home after the choir, I was thinking of ways how to say it and gathering all my guts. I had even crossed my mind not to tell it at all. But I though, "Would I let my only chance to take the UPCAT slip away because of cowardness? Would I waste all of my prayers, as well as my friends'?"

So after hours of thinking, I made up my mind to tell it. It was already midnight. Mama is using her laptop, listening to music with her headphones, when I approached her.

"Mama.." I started.

"O?"

"May sasabihin aco sa'yo."

"Ano 'yun?"

"'Wag kang magagalit ah?"

"?"

"Magte-take aco ng UPCAT."

So I've already blurted it out. It was maybe my first tome to try a "maamong" approach on telling serious things and asking permissions to her.

Her response made me feel jubilant and somewhat annoyed with myself.

"Bakit ngayon mo lang sinabi?" Her tone was like saying.

Oh great. So she would have allowed me if I said it earlier, and who knows, I might even attended a review class. But no time for regrets--I am not the kind of person who cry over a spilt milk. But I really feel happy that I can take the UPCAT.

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Ayyah's mom was the one who deposited my payment on the bank on Monday. The next day, she took our forms to pass it in UP.

And heck, I am the only one who doesn't have a companion on the examination day. I mean, among my friends, they would all be taking the exam on August 2--some on morning, others in afternoon, but still, they have someone with the same examination day and time as theirs--except me!

But it's okay, though it would be more fun if I would have a friend with me on the examination day.

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Everything is in rush. Maybe because we didn't take care of the matters earlier.

And I have just a month to review.

I'm not really expecting that I will pass in UP. It would be more like a experience to me. But still, I should pass the exam, if I don't want to study my college somewhere near our place, where the schools aren't that good.

Ivy, fighto!


Oh great. So my English sucks in this post. Sheesh. What the heck! I'll just gonna edit this later. I'm too sleepy now.