Too Lazy To Do A Proper Post

Happenings of the Day, KISS way:

1. I had a couple of reportings today. And I did well on those, I think so.

2. I had completely forgotten about our report in T.L.E. until Mrs. Herrera entered the room. Luis was my partner in reporting and our topic was "Caregiving Difficulties". Well, I think I did well on that. I used personal experiences in explaing, which I think was good because Mrs. Herrera like sharing her experiences herself.

When our report ended, Mrs. Herrera said that we've explained it very well and clearly so she just added some explaining for it. And I think that is a compliment, although she didn't say it directly to me. :)

3. Our lesson in Filipino was all about "Tayutay" (Figure of Speech). Yatta! My favorite! I kept on giving examples on it and persuaded Jette to do so. Muka kasing ewan 'yun, ang tali-talino, pero hindi nagre-recite kahit alam naman niya ang sagot. So I pointed him out loud when Ms. Bulilan asked for more example. Pero kinabahan yata, di nakasagot. Inulan tuloy sila ng tukso ni Niña dahil nakatayo rin 'yon. HAHA!

4. We had quiz on Computer and I got 16 over 20. Actually, there was only one thing that I don't know; my other answers got wrong because of a missing letter and other stupidity that I wrote. Hoho~

5. I went to Basil's room before going home to tell Ayyah that we can't go to Festi today to buy Remo a gift. And Adrian told me that there is a meeting at 1pm.

I was late for the meeting. It was already 1:30 when I got in school. Sila Remo, Adrian, and Rochelle lang naman ang nandun, nasa loob sila ng office ni Sir Buboy.

So Sir Buboy told them about Charlson's performance in the organization. He is the SSG Secretary, yet he wasn't doing anything, not even taking down notes during meetings (and he's absent on meetings, btw). So they were planning for an impeachment.

We went to the canteen to discuss it. So there was a voting for it. Adrian voted "yes" for Charlson's impeachment, while Remo and I voted "no". So it's a draw. We saw Gerard (SSG P.O.) and asked for his opinion, and he said "no".

Well for me, Chalson should be given a chance. Maybe he was just trying to cope with the position. While discussing about it, Adrian asked someone to look for Chalson so we can talk it with him.

So Charlson came. Of course he wanted to keep the position. We took turns in giving our opinion, when I said the thing that they seemingly forgotten: Chalson is the DCSS Secretary. If he will be impeached, it will affect the whole DCSS and Liceo de San Pedro's image. Syempre, yung sa'kin pa nga lang, dapat si Angel ang Fourth Year Rep. pero aco ang pinalit. Tapos si Jeje naman ang ginawang P.I.O. instead of Juani. Sabihin na nagkakagulo ang current SSg ng LDSP kaya ang daming changes sa position.

At the end, we agreed that Chalson shall keep his position. At aco ang pinagawa ni Eday ng letter tungkol dun. Aba! Aco pa! Pero ginawa co na rin kahit medyo unwilling aco, sabihin na lang, student-leader acong di naman responsable.

6. I got a perfect score in Math seatwork. Well, it was just all about addition and subtraction of polynomials. Only eight of us got a perfect score, and the rest shall stand up for the whole Math period tomorrow, unless they were able to answer in reciatation correctly.

7. My reporting in English had started. And they said I did well. Sabi nga ni Luis, sana daw aco na lang ang English teacher nila. HAHAHA! XD


Eh? This isn't Short and Simple, eh?

Unexpected Meet-up

We had our CAT training today, and I was late... again.

During the whole training, I was planning and thinking how could I get to Festival. Remo's birthday is on Thursday, and I need to look for something I could give to him.

So during the 10-minute break, I asked Ayyah if she could accompany me to Festi.

"O! Sumama ka na lang sa'min ni Muken! Magkikita kami ngayon e! Pupunta kaming Southmall, papaayos yung cellphone ni Jas!" She said enthusiastically.

I would looove to see Muken--erm, I mean, Louise. Ayyah even told me that Louise would be meeting up with Kriselle, so I would see her too. The idea was tempting, but I might have to spend money with that. I mean, I'm saving every cent--literally--for Remo's gift, and the fare to Southmall would be another expense. Well, it was petty, really, but still...

But Ayyah said that she and Louise could just drop me on Festi--maybe hang out in there for a while--then, they could go to Southmall. I would be all by myself, though, but I agreed. At least she could accompany me to Festi.

We hanged in the school before going home. We agreed to meet in Puregold at 2pm.

Because I was really super kuripot (especially these days), I walked my way to Puregold. The "sign" I was waiting happened, anyway. I told myself that I'll just walk to our meeting place if the sun shines, and it did. So I engaged myself in a little "walkathon" while wearing my favorite high-heeled sandals. :)

I reached Puregold at 2:00. And gawsh, Ayyah wasn't still there. So I waited for her for minutes. Hn, I knew this would happen. That girl. I was getting paranoid, when at last, I saw her.

Upon reaching Festival Mall, we went inside the National Bookstore for a while. Then Louise texted her, telling that they're in the food court.

We hurriedly went to food court, with Ayyah dragging me that I almost tripped. Ayyah, I'm wearing sandals here, not running shoes!

"Nakita co na sila Muken!!!" Ayyah said to me, getting more hyperactive, dragging me even more.

"TALAGA?!!" My excitement bursted up. "Teka! 'Wag muna tayong magpakita!! 'Wag mo munang sabihin sa'kin kung nasan sila!!"

Muka lang kaming tanga. Hahaha!

We went to ladies' comfort room before showing up to them. We saw Louise and Kriselle on a table, and I wa ssurprisingly shy when I waved on them.

"Hi.."

Louise kept on waving to me. Mou, akala co pa naman dati, suplada siya (Sorry, Louise, if your reading this entry! >.>). But she's friendly naman pala. :)

A girl eating ice cream sat beside Kriselle, and she greeted me. The girl looked familiar, but I couldn't tell who she was. I looked at Ayyah, asking some help.

"Si Aina."

Oh. Si Aina pala yun. I greeted her back.

The table was full of laughter. I butted in to the conversation sometimes, but I was surprisinly quiet. Medyo nahihiya pa kasi aco e.

Sadly, Kriselle needs to go home na. She was carrying to big bags, na ang laman daw e mga damit niyang pinagsiksikan niya lang. Galing yata siyang dorm niya e. Sayang naman. Well, at least nakita co siya. (And she's cuuuuute~!)

Dahil hindi pala pwede si Louise na samahan si Ayyah sa Southmall, kailangan cong sumama sa kanya kasi wala siyang kasama. But I still need to look for my gift to Remo in Festival. So we toured around.

Pumunta muna ulit kami sa National Bookstore to look for a special paper for the box. Well, I make a personally made box which cointains a birthday message inside to my [close] friends during their birthdays. Nung birthday ni Ayyah nagsimula last year yung box na yun e.

Aina and Louise. Aina's holding the banig-like... planner?

Nung makalabas na kami ng National Bookstore, Ayyah told me to take off my sandals. Oh great, she wanted to show them how small I am. What a sadist. But I gave in and took off my sandals, and Louise and Aina's faces was like O_O, and then they started saying things like, "Ang liit mo pala!" , "Ang cute!" , "Muka kang chibi!". Ohoho. Among the other people who saw how small I am, sa reaction nila aco pinakanatuwa.

We went to Clipper after that, in attempt to find a gift for Remo. Baka alkansya o kaya unan ang ibigay co sa kanya. Pwede na yun. Haha. :)

We decided to go to Comic Alley, the otakus' paradise. On our way, sa may second floor, was a man standing on a box-like thing. Or was it a statue? Maybe it was one of those "robot-like" man in malls. Because of curiosity, I approached the dude, attempting to hold him to know if it was real, but suddenly, it moved!!

And GAWSH, I screamed and freaked out and went back to the group (and I did it all at the same time)! I bet I really looked funny!

We approached the dude and he moved in a funny way and we took picture with him. Hohoho.~

Me with the "robot-like" dude. Bungisngis ee! XD

It's Louise turn!~

Next, we saw this mascot dancing Jai Ho. I gaped at it and pointed it like a child. There was a woman who approached us and kindly asked us if we want her to take pictures with the mascot. So Louise gave the lady her camera and we posted beside the mascot.

Ang cute ng mascot nu? HAHA!

Kamuka co na ba si Kim? x)

Finally, we made our way to Comic Alley. We saw the Vongola rings being displayed on the window and they were like, "WOW!". (If I'm not mistaken, I think the Vongola rings came from the anime Reborn! but sadly, I'm still in the episode 20 something, so I didn't much about it.)

We went inside it. While I was looking for the items, someone bumped hips with me. And I saw it was the "salesman" guy in the store. Under normal situation, I would've raised my brows to him and gave him the mataray look and walk away, but I saw Louise greeting the other attendants in CA, so I think it was harmless to smile at him. He was friendly enough when I talked to him, but still, I was feeling concious.

But that guy was the one who kindly took us pictures. And he has the Vongola rings! *Ayyah, Louise, and Aina's eyes sparkle with amazement and envy. HAHA!*

Group picture in Comic Alley. :)

Unfortunately, we need to part ways. Aina needed to go back to her school while Louise would be going home.

Ayyah and I went to Southmall to have Jasmin's cellphone repaired. That costed Ayyah 1, 100 PhP. Tsk.

We even saw Brenan from Pinoy Pop Superstar. He was having a mall tour. Ayyah was staring at her dreamingly when I approached her (I bought a cone of ice cream, despite my cough and colds).

"Tawagin natin." I said to Ayyah.

"'Yoko nga! Nakakahiya!"

"Basta, acong bahala. Tatawagin co ah."

"Langya ka." Ayyah smiled, siguro napapahiya na sa'kin.

Tahimik na noon. Hindi na maingay ang mga fans. At dahil papansin acong tunay, sumigaw aco ng ubod ng lakas.

"BRENAAAAN!!!"

The people looked up on me. Ayyah smiled. But I was disappointed dahil hindi man lang lumngon si Brenan. Parang wala lang. Wala na, ayoko na sa kanya. =___=

(Pictures courtesy of Louise.)

Gusto Kong Maging Teacher!

Let me enumerate the happenings of the day first, in KISS way (Keep It Short and Simple).

1. Mr. dela Torre made us repeat the praying of the rosary because there are lots of students outside the room even the rosary is taking place. And we received a lengthy sermon from him.

2. We had a quiz in T.L.E. I got 22 over 30. Nyah, it was still low. I'm not being greedy, I know that score was kinda okay, but I promised myself that I should get high grades this year. T_T

3. I reported in Filipino and Health. I did good in Filipino, I think, for my classmates and Ms. Bulilan said so. Though I'm not quite satisfied with myself in Health. I'll do better next time. :)

4. I forgot Honey's pocketbook on the room we used on Math time. So I went back to get it. Mr. del Rio was still in the room, doing something in the laptop. When I was about to go, he told me that the computer hanged, so I helped him to restart it. Hoho. I just feel kinda proud to help a great teacher. ^^

5. Mrs. Lopena didn't attend our class. I don't know if she's absent or what. But we didn't cared. We're too happy enjoying her absence to think about it. (We're bad, I know. XD)

6. We were asked to make a prayer during the Science time. It was actually a contest, but was held in the classroom. Too bad it's a group activity, again. Pero dinibdib co talaga ang paggawa dun ah. ;)

7. Sinisimulan na acong ulanin ng asar sa mga kaklase cong lalaki! Pero okay lang naman, sanay na aco sa pang-aasar. XD

Hoho. Short happenings of the day. Miracle I didn't elaborate it more. (You know how I love loooong posts.)

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GUSTO KONG MAGING TEACHER!

You heard it right. Believe it or not, I seriously want to be a teacher. Teacher, as in the person inside the classroom, standing in front of the students and teaching them.

It was my dream since I was a child. As a kid, I often play with my cousins that game. I am the teacher, while they are my students. I always find it amusing. Then I told myself, I would be a real teacher someday.



But I dismissed my childhood dream when I reached my later elementary years. I realized that I wouldn't be rich if I will become a teacher. And I want to be rich someday.

After dismissing my childhood dream, I didn't have any plans for the future. No plans for college, no plans for future career.

Maybe somehow, I'm maturing. Somehow, I'm mentally growing. Because I realized that it's not only the money that makes the world go round. I observe my "great" teachers' passion for their work, envision that it must be very accomplishing seeing your students after years, now successful people, all because of them.

Those kinds of feelings--being in front of the room facing students with different tantrums and personalities, sharing the knowledge you learned that could help them form their future, the bonding between the students and the teachers, being liked by the students and your work being appreciated--I wanted to feel those. And yes, I really do want to be a teacher.

I planned to take a computer or English-related course, but my main choices now are B.A. English and B.A. Linguistics. I could be a Religion or Computer or maybe a Filipino teacher, I think, but I excel more in English. Beside, this is my main interest.

I would be an English teacher. I would be like Mr. Luna, my "idol". Seriously, he is the teacher I wanted to be like. I want to teach the way he teaches, to be as great and as knowledgeable as him, if Heavens allows.

Looking at our "great" teachers--Mr. Luna, Sir del Rio, Ms. Bulilan, Ms. Rasdas, Ms. Rellosa, and the others--it makes me want to be like them. I look at them with such admiration and respect, and they are the persons I look up on. They are the persons I want to be in the future.

I also wanted to be like Mr. dela Vega, the only teacher--and perhaps, the only person--who really, truly believes in the things that I can do. I wanted to touch a student's life like what he did to me, wanted to inspire a youngster and uplift his or her spirit. Though he wasn't that "great" and a pretty much students were annoyed at him during his one-year stay in Liceo, he was different. No adult had ever believed in me the way he did, no teacher admired so much me as a student, and no person had ever made me a poem out of the little note he saw in my notebook. Yes, I'll give back that kindness to my future students.

But of course, I have my own insecurities and worries. What if I won't be as great as the teachers I admire? What if I won't be respected by my students? What if I will be like the teachers whom I am pissed of because they just babble a seemingly alien language in front? And what if won't be a teacher?

As much as possible, I don't want to turn away from the path of being a teacher. I don't want to loose my interest and my dream. And if ever I become one, I don't want to be added to the piles of incapable teachers who teach nonsense things and were despised by students.

So now, I'm already preparing my way and my plans. I'm practicing myself in speaking in front of the class, that's why I told myself to be good in reporting. I'm practicing speaking fluent English without stuttering. I'm studying my grammar, my communication skills, and anything I could do to prepare myself as a good teacher. I'm still not good at those, but I'll try to be.

Yes. I would be a teacher. A good teacher. I would contribute to a student's development. And as much as possible, I definitely want to teach in Liceo de San Pedro, my true home that had given me sanctuary. I could envision it, taste it like reality.

Walking down the corridor, a little woman wearing a teacher's uniform. Her face is exactly like mine, only the childish features were replaced by a mature angle. And I would see the persons who had been my teachers, walking the same corridor as I. I would nod and smile at them, greet them, for they are my co-teachers now. And I would enter a classroom--a Jurassic-like place with standing students and cackling laughter and flying crumpled papers. I would face them, face them with pride and they would be silent with my presence. I would look at them, a sea of young, immature, childish faces with grinning lips, and I would see myself in them--a high school student who was noisy and mischievous but dreams vivid, wonderful dreams, who admires great teachers and wishes to be like them.

My friends would see me, and they will say, "Uy, teacher ka na pala!". Who knows, I could even teach their children, or one of them will be a teacher, just like me.

Yes. This is what I want. Gusto cong maging teacher!!

I Suck at Titles

Oh yeah. I suck at titles.

Don't you just notice how plain and simple my previous blog posts are? Yeah, the titles aren't appealing.

T_T

Awesome Day!

It's already 6am when I woke up, so I hurried on my way to school. Baka ma-late pa aco. But I saw group of fourth year students at the sidewalk.

Of course I wondered why they're not inside the school yet. I thought they would cut classes or something, but as I walked towards the school, I saw so many students outside! Halos lahat yata ng mga pang-umagang estudyante e nasa labas e.

I saw Steni and the other CATs. I asked them what on earth is happening.

"May AHINI." They said.

"Ha? Ahini??" *puzzled*

"H1N1!!"

Wut? May case ng H1N1 sa school?

Ewan co kung tsismis lang na lumalaganap eto, pero sabi nila na may H1N1 nga daw. And what the school is doing about it? They are checking the temperature of the students... gamit lang ang isang normal thermometer. Nako. Tanghali na siguro di pa kami tapos nito. (No offence meant, school! Piz!) Kasi man lang, sana dinamihan nila yung thermometer na gagamitin. Mura lang naman 'yun e. ;p

We waited outside for minutes. Yung ibang mga estudyante, lalo na yung mga lalaki, ang lalakas ng trip. Yung tropa nila Ponan e bumili facemask sa Mercury Drug. Haha. Mukantanga lang e.

Pinapila kaming lahat sa plaza. Sila Ginnique at Adrian ang nag-aayos sa mga estudyante. Medyo nakakahiya nga e, kasi Fourth Year Representative aco. Which means kailangan cong tumulong. Jeez, ayoko talagang maging authority figure e. Pero pinaayos co yung mga kaklase cong magulo sa pila. At least may ginawa naman aco.

Mayamaya, pinapasok na rin kaming lahat. 'Di na kami kinuhanan ng temperature. We found out that there were a lot of sick students yesterday. Almost 61 daw. E sa section palang namin, halos kalahati rin ang wala kahapon dahil may sakit. Aco nga medyo sinisinat pa. (Pero pumasok pa rin aco! HAHA! Hayaan nga, ipalaganap ang virus!)

For me, we shouldn't be that paranoid with Influenza A(H1N1). Yes, it is just right to ensure our health and safety, pero 'wag masyadong paranoid. It's just a mild kind of flu, as the DOH says. Ipagpalagay na lang natin na isa lang itong ubo na maraming nahawa. Ganun. May lunas naman na dito e; the government is doing what it can do for the people's safety.

But of course, we should be careful. Mahirap nga namang mahawaan ng sakit. 'Wag lang talagang mapaparanoid. :)

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Nung uwian ng umaga, I saw Lea at the corridor area. So I approached her at nagkipag-chikahan. Nagdramahan nga kami e. Pa'no kasi, about nostalgic things ang pinag-uusapan namin.

I miss this kind of bonding with Lea. Minsan na lang kami kasi magkasama ngayon e. Nakakatuwa din na may pagkakataon pa kaming mag-bonding. And I told her the things that I couldn't discuss with my other friends. I mean, syempre, may mga bagay na mas kumportable acong kay Lea sabihin, at may mga bagay na mas kumportable naman acong sabihin sa iba.

And I felt nostalgic. I told her how I feel about our other friends. How they are changing, how they seem to be unreachable (lalo na yung mga nasa star). Pero in fairness naman sa kanila, nagri-reach out sila sa'min. Hindi rin lumalaki yung ulo nila kahit marami na silang accomplishment.

But still, I miss the "old" them. I mean, I miss it when they're still within my hands' reach. I miss it when I am such a close friend to them, unlike now when there are already lots of people around them that they barely yearn or want my company.

I know I am just being selfish. Of course I am happy that they're growing up everyday, maturing in such good ways. But at the same time, I could feel the nostalgia as I look at them, realizing how different the things are now.

Habang nagku'kwentuhan kami ni Lea, Eday approached us. Speaking of the devil, the devil is here. Haha. Nagpapasama nga magpa-print ng mga picture ng mga mag-eEagle scout.

Actually, anung oras na at dapat e nasa bahay na co. Pero sabi co, minsan lang naman 'to na makakapag-bonding aco sa mga taong mahal co. Edi lubos-lubosin na.

Ang landi-landi ni Eday ngayon. Well, actually, parati naman e. Pero nakakatuwa kasi kasama namin siya. Kelan ba yung huling pagkakataon na nakasama cong mag-bonding si Adrian at Lea at the the same time? I couldn't remember anyomore. And now, I'll just savor the moment 'till it lasts.

Nagyaya nga siya ng scramble. E umalis na, kaya nag-7-eleven na lang kami. Slurpee, yung maliit lang ang cup. Haha.

"Ang saya ng araw na ito." Lea said as we went back to school. And I agreed with her. Yes. This is such an awesome day. Because I am with my friends, the people that I love. : )

Fever

I was really feeling bad yesterday that I immediately slumped on the sofa after taking off my P.E. uniform. I was planning to just snooze off a bit, I slept the whole night away. My stomach was grumbling when I woke up at the middle of the night, but I didn't care to eat dinner. And heck, neck and forehead felt hot.

Oh great, so I have a little fever. Blame it to my sore throat. Dang, kapag masakit talaga ang lalamunan co, pati buong katawan co sumasakit. So my life really depends on my voice, eh?

I woke up unusually early this morning. I was planning to review Math, but I end up in the couch again. I really feel weak. At para pa acong binugbog sa sobrang sakit ng katawan co. Salamat sa pesteng sinat co.

When called Ayyah, she told me not to attend the choir and just rest. As if I would let a stupid fever prevail me from attending the choir.

So naghanda na aco papunta sa school. Umuulan pa nga e. Nung papunta na aco sa school, umaambon pa. Mama told me to bring an umbrella, pero sira naman yung payong. Kaya sumugod aco sa ambon. Ang galing co nu? May sinat pa aco ng lagay na 'yan. Sadista talaga. (Btw, my mom didn't know that I'm running a temperature. She'll surely make me stay in the house if she does.)

Alas dos na pero wala pang lima ang choir members sa school pagdating co. Yung Batingaw naman nasa may stage. Akala co ba alas-dos ang practice? Ang ba-bait talaga.

Dapat magre-review kami ni Ayyah. Pero tinatamad aco. Nakakatamad talagang magbasa ng mga numbers. Worse, numbers na may kasamang letters. Tinitingnan co pa lang, tinatamad na aco. (Pa'nu kaya aco magkakaroon ng pag-asa sa UPCAT nito? XD )

Dumating si Remo at ginawa ang narrative report ng Banyuhay Club. In Filipino ah. Talagang napatunayan cong mas mahirap gumawa ng mga sulatin sa Tagalog than English. XD

Nako, baka hindi nagawa ni Abby yung narrative report ng Glee Club. Tinatamad pa naman acong gawan. =D

Dumating naman si Gerard na iika-ika. Ayun, napilay ang paa dahil sa volleyball. Katangahan kasi, tumalon tapos na-bend yung paa niya. Di tuloy siya makapglakad ng maayos.

Kaya nang dumating si Sir ng alas-tres, inakay pa siya pataas. Dun kami sa room nila magpa-practice kase nga yung Batingaw e ginagamit yung stage.

Late nang dumating ang mga galing sa review for the UPCAT. Di rin kami masyadong nakapag-practice ng maayos kasi pina-practice ni Jasmin yung chords ng mga kanta.

Somehow, I felt better. Though I'm still a little bit hot, I feel okay. Maybe this is really my own medicine: the sight of school and my friends. I couldn't afford to feel weak when I feel happy being with them. (Woot, ang drama.)

We went to the church at five. We sang well, thankfully. Maaga ring natapos ang misa, though wala acong masyadong naintindihan sa homily. ;p

Paglabas namin sa simbahan, nagulat na lang kami nang makita namin si Lumbania na parang nagwawala. Sa'ming choir nakatingin. Hala, anong meron??

Nakatingin lang kami sa kanya habang akala mo e maghahamon siya ng away. Of course we all wondered to whom he is angry with, until I heard Joselle mumbling taunting words habang nagtataray sa kanya.

So si Joselle pala ang hinahamon niya. Ex daw kasi ng ate niya si Lumbania, na niloko lang nito. Kaya ayun, nagalit si Joselle at "inaway" niya.

Eto namang si Lumbania, akala mo lalaki ang hinahanap kung maghamon e. Parang handang-handang makipagbabagan.

Buti na lang umalis na rin siya. Inawat ni Marian kaya medyo nawala na rin ang tensyon. Sus, akala pala nila si Eday ang kaaway. Haha! At nagawa pa naming pagkatuwaan si Joselle at ang sitwasyon.

Hinatid muna nila Ablay si Joselle sa sakayan para makasiguradong hindi na siya aabangan ni Lumbania. At pagkatapos, pumunta na kami sa 7-eleven.

Para kaming nagpu-prusisyon dahil nga iika-ika si Gerard. Moonwalk e. Ang sarap pagtawanan e! Haha! Ang bad co talaga! >:)

I treated Adrian this time. Parati naman kasi niya acong nililibre. Saka feeling nice aco ngayun e. =D

The 7-eleven was filled with noise because of us. Puro tawanan dahil sa mga okrayan, kulitan, biruan. Our table was full of plastic and cups and junk food clutters.

But it felt good, laughing like this with the people that I consider as friends. I love laughing like this, laughing like there is no tomorrow, laughing so loud that my stomach and jaw hurt, laughing with the people I love.

Anong oras na rin nung magkayaan kami umuwi. Sabi pa naman ni mama umuwi aco ng maaga. We parted in groups. I was with Bart, Jayjay, Eday and Gerard because they would be coming back to the main building, at dun ang way co. Sila Ayyah naman umuwi na.

Dahil tinatamad pa rin naman acong umuwi, sumama na rin aco kila Gerard. Pero nakita niya sila Jago, at nagpahintay muna siya sa'min dahil ihahatid niya daw ito. Ihahatid. Nang ganun yung paa niya. Nice. Pustahan tayo, pagapang na iyong babalik.

So we waited. Tawanan pa rin kami ng tawanan. Nagpapa-tangkaran pa nga etong mga lalaking 'to. At si Eday, dahil malandi, nabubog ang paa! Hahaha! Magpapatangkaran pa kasi. Buti na lang di na aco sumali (kung sabagay wala naman acong laban sa kanila XD).

Ang tagal pa naming naghintay. Wala. Nasagasaan na siguro yun si Gerard. Nagulungan yung isa pang paa. Gagapang na talaga 'yun pauwi.

Dahil ang tagal-tagal ni Gerard, umuwi na rin aco. Mag-aalas-otso na sa orasan namin (advance kasi e), buti na lang di aco pinagalitan ni Mama. :)

It was such a wonderful day, kahit sininat pa aco at masama ang pakiramdam. God is really good to me. ^^

First Friday Mass

July 4, 2009; Friday

I was kinda anxious today. This is the first First Friday mass that I am going to attend with the choir (the last time, I was in the oath-taking for the SSG).

Every section lined up in the quadrangle first. I was looking for the third year when I saw the Basil making their way through the crowd. Good, at least I don't need to call them up.

"Punta na lang kayo sa simbahan ah, hahanapin co pa Peter." I instructed them. Remo volunteered to go with me, thankfully. And gaah, after that long way up to the Peter's room, I didn't find anyone in there. Great.

Remo and I just went to the church. Upon reaching the choirbox, I saw the St. Peters. Nako. Nauna pa pala sila sa'min.

I occupied the seat near the stairs. For a second, I felt proud sitting in this area. When I was in first year and second year, this is where the "authorities" sit, while we stay at the far corner. I mean, kahit kasi wala nang available na upuan sa part na ito, talagng dito at dito pa rin aco, as well as the other "older" members, uupo. Kami nila Adrian, Remo, Jayjay. Yung parang "authorities" nga.

Don't get me wrong. I still don't want to be an authority fugure. But still, I could feel an unexplainable happiness because I am the one "governing" the organization that I love. Aco ang may hawak sa club that I served for almost 5 years. The org where my true friends is, the people that I love. And of course, the org which is my instrument is serving Him. :)

Sabi nga nila, liga ng star ang Glee Club. Ilan lang ba kaming non-star sa choir? Lima lang yata. For such a long time, star section student ang namumuno sa organization na ito. Aco lang ang sumira sa "chain". And I feel proud, dahil isang non-star ang namumuno sa liga ng mga star. It may seem petty, but it's a big thing for me. Because they entrust me this organization, they gave me the chance to lead them. I, who is a non-star student.

Of course, this is not between stars and non-stars. This is about my passion for the choir. I never wished or thought of being the Glee Club president, but I'm happy that I am. This is the fruit of my years of service for the choir and for Him, my last year in this org, and I am going to make it memorable. :)

Parang medyo konti lang kami. Si Ayyah, wala. Buti sila Gerard at Tan e nakadating kahit hindi co nasabihan. I though Adrian wouldn't sing with us because he's still not around, so I was kinda surprised when I saw him on the stairs.

"O? Bakit nandito ka? Kakanta ka?" I said almost bluntly.

"Aba bakit, ayaw mo? Sige, bababa na aco." He joked.

"Hindi. Akala co lang naman."

He took a chair from the corner and sat on "this" area. Authorities. :)

Before the mass started, Sir Bautisa arrived. Buti na lang.

I didn't understand a thing on the mass. We're busy chatting with each other (ang bad namin nu?). During the homily, as Adrian and I were talking, napunta kami sa mga pagbabago sa kanya.

Yes, he is changing. Maturing, perhaps. And as he grows up as an individual, he's becoming unreachable. I mean, yes, he's reaching out on us, on me, but the fact that he is a "big" person now and not just the ordinary student I first met is so clear. And I told all of that to him.

"Pero parang ganun pa'rin naman aco ah," he said. I could see his eyes getting misty, as well as mine. I'm really a sensitive person, especially to my friends. "Kung ano naman ang ginagawa co dati, ayun pa rin ang ginagawa co pa rin."

"Oo nga, pero hindi mo naman maiaalis na nagbabago ka na talaga. Parang... ang layo mo na." I told him, then biglang kambyo, "Pero in fairness naman sa'yo, di nalaki yung ulo mo. Humble ka pa rin naman saka lumalapit ka pa rin sa'min kahit.. iba na level mo. Saka maganda naman para sa'yo yung pagbabago mo e. Gaya na lang nang mas nagiging lalaki ka na kahit papano," we both smiled when I mentioned that. "Pero hindi co pa rin maalis na malungkot kasi... nagbabago ka na."

He's changing. As well as my other friends. They're are all maturing, growing up, while I'm still a childish, immature girl--physically and emotionally--someone who dwells in the past, unable to move on because my most precious memories belong to that special chapter of my life.

The mass ended. Ang sama co, nakipagdaldalan lang aco. >:) But thank you, Lord, because You gave me time to be with the my friends. :)

Rush

Last Saturday, I was praying almost the whole day. The deadline for the UPCAT forms is just a few days away, and my mother still didn't know all about it. I was planning not to say it at all, but I was unable to save the money for the examination fee, so I have to tell it to her, or I won't be ablt to take the examination ever.

The reason why I don't want to tell it to my mother is because she doesn't want me to study college in Manila. I don't want to elaborate more about it, but a word that would best describe her reason is 'over-protectiveness'.

So I arrange the requirements all by myself, the only problem is the fee. I was anxious and worried that Saturday because Ayyah's mom would be passing the forms in UPD on Monday. Even my friends were wishing--and perhaps, praying--that my mom will allow me.

When I got home after the choir, I was thinking of ways how to say it and gathering all my guts. I had even crossed my mind not to tell it at all. But I though, "Would I let my only chance to take the UPCAT slip away because of cowardness? Would I waste all of my prayers, as well as my friends'?"

So after hours of thinking, I made up my mind to tell it. It was already midnight. Mama is using her laptop, listening to music with her headphones, when I approached her.

"Mama.." I started.

"O?"

"May sasabihin aco sa'yo."

"Ano 'yun?"

"'Wag kang magagalit ah?"

"?"

"Magte-take aco ng UPCAT."

So I've already blurted it out. It was maybe my first tome to try a "maamong" approach on telling serious things and asking permissions to her.

Her response made me feel jubilant and somewhat annoyed with myself.

"Bakit ngayon mo lang sinabi?" Her tone was like saying.

Oh great. So she would have allowed me if I said it earlier, and who knows, I might even attended a review class. But no time for regrets--I am not the kind of person who cry over a spilt milk. But I really feel happy that I can take the UPCAT.

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Ayyah's mom was the one who deposited my payment on the bank on Monday. The next day, she took our forms to pass it in UP.

And heck, I am the only one who doesn't have a companion on the examination day. I mean, among my friends, they would all be taking the exam on August 2--some on morning, others in afternoon, but still, they have someone with the same examination day and time as theirs--except me!

But it's okay, though it would be more fun if I would have a friend with me on the examination day.

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Everything is in rush. Maybe because we didn't take care of the matters earlier.

And I have just a month to review.

I'm not really expecting that I will pass in UP. It would be more like a experience to me. But still, I should pass the exam, if I don't want to study my college somewhere near our place, where the schools aren't that good.

Ivy, fighto!


Oh great. So my English sucks in this post. Sheesh. What the heck! I'll just gonna edit this later. I'm too sleepy now.