December

First day of December!


Christmas is fast approaching!


And seven days to go before the sixteenth year! :D *shot*

I Am In Love ♥

I am in love.

And it was love at first sight.

I saw "him" in Robinson's Department Store at Festival Mall last Sunday, November 15. I was bored and preoccupied by some nonsense things, when I saw him, and... and it was like... magic.

At that instant that I saw him, I knew he is the one. I knew it. I could feel it. He was the "man of my dreams", he was the one I am wishing and waiting for.

I continued to gaze at him, my eyes filled with awe and affection. I could've been drooling over him. I was squealing, and I knew I shouldn't let him go.

He was... perfect. Well, not entirely perfect. He has some setbacks. But still, I love him. I could feel it. I knew he was the "one".

He will be mine. He should be mine. I was still looking at him intently him when it's time to walk away, but I knew we were meant to be.

Making a hasty decision that I won't regret, I made up my mind. I touched him with reverence and affection, and immediately took him home.

Haaay, it feels good to be in love. :)





My new love. <3

Working on a new blog

Yeah, I'm working on a new blog here on Blogger. This blog's anniversary is getting nearer, and I wanted to have a new blog as soon as 2010 starts. I could've let go of this one, but I guess I should wait for it to turn one year.

I've already made a new account here in blogger. I'm still thinking of the name for the blog so the URL is still temporary. I'm on a blogskin-hunt.

I would want a layout with the sidebar on the left, and navigations for my profile. Haha. And with header, too, so I could edit it and put the header I am working on. I would like a clean and simple one, but I could find any, so I was temporarily working on a pink one. Haha. But I'm still on a hunt, though.

So, in more than a month, it would be a bye-bye blog. /sob

But this would be better, I want a new start. ;)

Nothing Really Matters

No, no. This is not an angsty post. And though this one is days late, I'll still post it now. :)

Though I usually keep a confident attitude, I also get worried about what other people will think about me. I am such an eccentric person, and often misunderstood too. I know people have different opinions about me--positive ones, and probably more negative thoughts.

Though I say that people's opinions don't really matter, of course they somewhat affect me too. In everything I do, I cannot help but think of what other people will say. I may ignore them, but at the back of my mind, what they say will always have an impact on me, no matter how little it may seem.

But when my friends are with me, do they really matter? When the people I love are ready to accept me for who and what I am, are they really important? No. My friends--the people that I value most--they are the real important persons to me.

Their opinion are what really matters to me. What they think of me is what's really important. The world may turn it's back on me., but when I see them smile at me, I would be okay. Other people may think too little of me, but when I know that my friends are ready to accept me, it doesn't really matter. People who pretend to me my "friends" may say bad things about me--on my back or straight to my face--but when I know that the people I cherish really understand me and love me, nothing really matters.

Nothing really matters but them. My friends. Real friends.

I'm glad that you continue to stay with me through and through. I'm glad that you're always there for me. On the surface, I may look okay, but beneath, I was trying to mend myself. And you stayed with me, enduring my tantrums and caprices. You never left me. You help me bring my self-esteem back.

I don't know what I did to deserve people as awesome as you are. Thank you guys!

You may not be able to read this blog entry, but I will make you feel how thankful am I to have friends as good as you are. Thank you. You are all the best!

Blogs That I Follow

Since I am being bored and I wanted to blog but I don't have something to share because I was just here in the house, I'll just post the blogs that I usually visit. :)

A Little Voice Within
(http://chibivy.wordpress.com)

- My private blog in Wordpress. Some posts are password-protected so you can't read them without asking me what the password is. x)

An Angel's Unfolded Wings
(http://rookie-chan.livejournal.com)

- Ayyah's blog in LJ. I was telling her to move to Blogger na but she just love her LJ the way I blog my BS. Her posts are 'For Friends Only' so you can't read them if you aren't her friend in LJ.

Automatic Petals
(http://automaticpetals.blogspot.com)

- Ariane's blog. I usually have the tab of her blog open while I'm doing things in my computer because I lalalalove the songs in it. Piano instrumentals are really soothing; working on my PC without a background music is kinda lame and other songs are just too distracting, and really, I am beginning to adore Yiruma now. XD

balut & natto
(http://garando.blogspot.com)

- I saw this link in Japinoy.com forums. This is about Garando, a Filipino, and his Japanese wife, Garandee. I find his stories humorous, too.

Drawing Imperfect Circles
(http://ruchichan.blogspot.com)

- Ruchi/Lucille's blog. I find the name of her blog cute. I was actually thinking of a verb + adjective + noun name for my new official blog in BS.

Dreams in the Dusk
(http://silverdusk07.blogspot.com)

- Louise blog. I find her picture posts cute too because they were edited in an anime-ish way. Plus her blog music is a piano instrumental too so it's lalalove.

I, for one, forbid you.
(http://lavendermassacre.blogspot.com)

- Mau's blog. Before, I have hard time visiting her site because I always mistook the spelling of lavender as lavander. LOL. /stupid self.

LUCKYVONNE
(http://luckyvonne.blogspot.com)

- Ate Jhaey's blog. It was actually her that made me think of Blogger when I was thinking of putting up an "online diary" because I saw her blog link in Friendster. She seems to be in hiatus, though.

Someday, we will find what we're living for.
(http://fiction-junkie.blogspot.com)

- Karuru's blog. Just recently linked her blog and added it in my Blogs I'm Following in my Dashboard.

Stapled Rainbow
(http://tracinginfinity.blogspot.com)

I stapled a rainbow in my notebook. Mine forever to keep. To hope for little happiness in my deep sleep.

- Cabel's blog. I find her blog name and blog description, as well as her blog URL, cute (Sorry, I don't know the blog description of the others because you're using a "blogskin".) The name of my new offcial blog could be a adj + n or v + n too! I think she's also moving to WP, though?

The Foolish Traveler
(http://thefoolishtraveler.wordpress.com)

- Formerly using BS, Kriselle is now a WP user. I find her college life kewl. Plus the conversation she posts are funny too!

The Pancake Batter Anomaly
(http://thepancakebatteranomaly.blogspot.com)

- Aina's blog. I find her blog name cute too. I heard it's from a program whatsoever named The Big Bang Theory or something? (Don't know, sorry). Her layout is very LJ-ish too. :)

Yay! <3
(http://syntaxerrorboom.blogspot.com)

- Apyl-neechan's blog. I think she's on hiatus, though, because her last post was like, uhm, last August?

I used to follow some other blogs too (like those of my former classmates'), but I unfollow blogs that were abandoned by the owner. These blogs were currently the blogs that I follow.

One thing I love Blogger is that it allows me to follow blogs and check out whenever they have new posts agad. Well, at the bottom part of the Dashboard, you could click the Add button, the type the URL of the blog you want to follow, hit Next, and so on and so forth. Whenever the people that I follow made a new post in their blogs, I was able to know because it is shown in the Reading List plus the except of their post, instead of always visiting the site to check out for new posts. I could also follow other blog sites other than Blogger too.

Visit 'em too!




P.S.
I hope you guys don't mind me putting the link of your blogs in this post. Or... do you?

Nicknames

(Copied from my other BS blog because I would be deleting it soon.)

My complete name is Ivy Bernadette Concepcion Nobleza. My mother’s name is Irene and my father’s name is Bernard so perhaps they decided to name me after the first letters on their name.

I was born on eighth day of December 1993, Wednesday at Jose Fabella Hospital. I have lots of connection with religiousness. My birthday is the Feast Day of Immaculate Conception—and my middle name is Concepcion—and I was named after the girl who saw her, St. Bernadette.

I’m contented with my name unlike those who wanted their name to be changed. I think Ivy Bernadette is quite unique name. Well, I like my first (and second) name, but I don’t like my surname that much. I like Concepcion better. If I have my mother’s name instead, it would be Ivy Bernadette Rivera Concepcion. Sounds pretty cool, right? And I would be one of the first ones when we are asked to arrange ourselves alphabetically in school. Plus it will sound nice if ever I get married and have C. as my middle initial rather than N. Parang ang sagwa kasi ng middle initial na N. e. But anyway, it is my name now so I can do nothing about it.

Most people call me Ivy. No one ever called me Bernadette. Oh! I remember one person who called me that—my Math teacher when I was in third grade. But I wish someone would really call me Bernadette. Not that I don’t like Ivy, I just don’t want my other name to be neglected. LOL. Maybe it was because it is mouthful so people call me Ivy instead.

Though I find my names hard to… elaborate. I mean, when we have a project on school where you could put your name on it, Ivy is a very short on and hard to put a design on. While Bernadette is too long. I just use my other names instead.

Oh well, I tried to remember other names—the names some people call me and the names I baptized for myself—and their history. Brace yourself and get ready to memorize them ALL! PWAHAHAHAHA!! XD

* ai-chan - This is the name I prefer to be called online. But unfortunately, few people call me this way; they’ve been used with some other names (like Chibivy). They still recognized me as Ai-chan, anyway.
* ai-vee bhernadethe – I just add some kaartehan with my name and this is the one that turned out. Cool, isn’t?
* Animony (Rose) – This is my very first alias. I used this since I was, what, Grade One, I think. Seriously. I think I got this from the anime Magic Knight. I was so fascinated with this name that I even baptized myself as ‘Animony Rose Delos Santos’ (the surname was just a random one) and even gave some of my friends when we play or give letters to each other a name starting with letter ‘A’. (like Aume, Anaranae, Akiro, Ayasminia, and Azolaida. Very corny.) But I didn’t use this name now, it’s pretty much forgotten. =/
* Aybi - This is actually how people pronounce my name. Like, duh? Can’t they pronounce it as Ai-vi as in violin? Anyway, it’s fine with me.
* Bata - Mr. Dela Vega, my English teacher when I was a sophomore who was the closest teacher to me ever because I am his pet, was the one who called me this. It is because I am so small, and it was also what he called to his friend in college who was almost as small as me. And soon, my classmates in second year call me this way. Some still call me this name until now.
* Bhing – the nickname my mother gave me. Some call me this, too. Nevertheless, this is one of my identification.
* Bi/Bhi – What people call me when they too lazy to say my two-syllable name. =|
* chibivy – Ayyah was the one who baptized me with this name. She combined the word ‘chibi’, which means small in Japanese, to ‘ivy’ so this is the product. She had severely teased me this name—telling people to call me this—and we were chatting in the I:U chatbox when she told Iori this name. Soon, Iori-niichan, called me this name and the other I:U members as well. At first, I kinda have a mild aversion on this name, but people are calling me this way often that I got used to it. I found it cute eventually, so I adapted it and currently, it is my most used identity especially online. It also evolved and gave birth to many names.
* Chibaby – I could remember I send a text GM to Iori and he replied to me with a message like, “Ello, Chibaby!”. When I ask him why he called me that way, he said he’ll call me various names according to his mood and he was in his ‘mood’ to call me this and it is the same with Dearling (the endearment he calls to Ayyah). So he’s calling me Chibaby now, while I call him Honeyori (Honey+Iori).
* Chibibeh – The first name that evolved from Chibaby. Iori is also the one who called me this; he told me because I am small and he imagined me to walk like a duck. Sama. But he doesn’t call me this now. Maybe he already forgot it. x)
* Chibibs – This evolved from Chibibeh. Iori was the one who baptized me with this name, again. And as soon as Ayyah learned about it, she start calling me this, until now (Jeez, they’re partners in giving me names, aren’t they?). So I’m also known as Chibibs.
* danrebette yvia – I just scrambled the letters in my name and this is the one that turned out. 8D
* Ibyang – It was a name that my mother called me when I was young, though I was somewhat forgotten. But once, out of the blue, I mindlessly told this to my third year classmates, telling it had been a typoon (really!) once. It was supposed to be a whisper, but because I have an awfully loud, shrilling, naturally high-pitched voice, the ‘whisper’ was heard by all of my classmates and they started laughing at my nickname. Soon, almost everyone called me this until now.
* ibconobleza – This is my oh-so-plain signature.
* Iolanthe – This is my registered name in I:U (well, I asked Ayyah to changed my name from poison ivy to this one). For the history, see the next nickname.
* Iolanthe Choiseul – My vampire name.=D I found this cool vampire name generator in the net and tried out my name. The name ‘Ivy Nobleza’ turned out as Claudia Tussand. I didn’t like it so I experimented on my other name, trying out Bernadette Rivera (my mother’s middle name before she was married) and this turned out. This is one of my identification in the net and in personal.
* Iolanthe Vigée-Lebrun – I also used vampire name generator for this. Don’t ask what surname I used. XD It’s cooler than Iolanthe Choiseul, so it’s the one that use more frequently.
* Ivylog – As far as I can remember, it was Remo who called me this when we were in first year. People like adding words to my name like ‘Ivy-ngi’ and ‘Ivy-tin’ or something like that but this is the one that really lasted for a long time. Until now, some people call me this randomly.
* kawaii_shojo25 – It’s the one that I use in my e-mail adds. I discovered that ‘kawaii’ is a Japanese name for cute and ‘shojo’ means young girl when I was in sixth-grade (all thanks to Ayyah’s Japanese-English dictionary) and I use this since then.
* Kawaii Shojo Sakuraha – A more name-like name. I’ve always been fascinated to sakura trees so I used ‘Sakuraha’. I also used this name for a chief character in one of my story.
* Miyuki Kanzaki – One of my formal pen names. I’ve been using this name for a long time now. I used this name for one of my story, too.
* magical dreamer – I used this as a screen name in our LAN chat when I was in first because I frequently dream of things that eventually happen in reality. Unfortunately, I learned too soon that it was me because she knows about my dreams. Dang.
* Maple Tree – Ayyah is the only one who called me this name. When I asked het why she calls me this, she simply says it’s because I am small (though I doubt there’s some meaning with this name *shoots daggers to Ayyah*). Well, she was depressed when she called me this—I think. I am her maple tree, and she’s my pine tree. Though this name is pretty forgotten because she seems to enjoy calling me other names. X)
* Mommy – What my little sister calls me. People were always surprise whenever my sister call me this way and I could actually assume they think I have a seven-year-old daughter! Haha! XD
* momo iro yuki – ‘pink’ and ‘snow’ in Japanese which came from my other pen name, pinksnow.
* momo iro yume – Means ‘pink’ and ‘dream’.
* momo-chan – It evolved from ‘momo iro yuki’ and ‘momo iro yume’ and I use this until now.
* Ne – Short for ‘Nene’. See Nene.
* Nene – It was those boys in my sophomore year who gave me this nickname. And we weren’t even close when they baptized me with this. It was because I am a little girl. Almost everyone in my sophomore class called me this and it has been one of my identification.
* Nobleza – What some of the teachers and some acquaintances call me, though most of them are calling me Ivy and I prefer that. But, duh? It’s too formal. I often glower to people who call me this especially those that I known for years.
* pinksnow – One of my first pen names. I used this name when I was submitting my lovesick poems in our school paper.
* poison ivy – One of my frequently used name. This is from the poisonous Ivy plant and not from the movie Batman.
* poison ivy™ - See poison ivy.
* Vi/Vhi – Another nickname when people are feeling lazy.

See? I have awfully LOTS of name. Some of them were from my classmates, but it’s Ayyah that I should really blame more!!! She is the one who contribute a LOT in my pile of names. XD Oh Ayyah, the name creator.

Though I didn’t really mind it when they baptized me with new ones. I already have piles of name to identity ‘Ivy’ and I am certain a hell lot more will come.

(I am just starting to explain the things in the post ‘She Is Ivy’ and look how long this is. It just the names, uh? I still have a long way to go. XD )

New Layout

Gyaha! Finally! After months of hunting for a nice blog skin, I already found one!

I originally planned to make my own skin, but reality bites, I couldn't still make one. Good thing my patience to look for a nice skin paid off, and I found this one.

I didn't originally like this layout that much when I first tried it out, but when I decided to edit it and saw the result, I already liked it. And I am so proud of myself because I am just the one who edited it! I didn't asked for help. Maybe I am improving. Hoho.

I am still looking for an awesome header, though, so the one in here is just temporary. I was thinking what photo should I put on. Hmmm..

Comment link is at the bottom of the post, by the way, in case you didn't notice. For comments and suggestions about the layout, just drop a message in the chatbox.

Gawsh, my English sucks, eh?

Facebook

Yeah. Right. I'm using Facebook now and I'm one of those pretty lot of people who are going crazy over it. Facebook was even much-talked about in school. Well, it's undeniably popular.

My FB account had been around for a long time now. I joined the site at the moment I learned about it, but like most of the social sites I've joined, it had been stagnant for the first months. I rarely open it, I just check out on the updates and confirm friend request. I once tried playing Pet Society but didn't like it at that time.

The popularity of Facebook in our school became widespread this August. Everyone's babbling about it. So I decided to try to browse the site. And now, I've been playing various games in it. XD

And hey! Kindly add me! My e-mail address is kawaii_shojo25@yahoo.com : )


I always see this camera on TV that instantly develop pictures. You know that? The one that "gives out" a photo paper after you take pictures and you need to blow the photo paper for a few minutes and the image will appear. It's really so so awesome and I badly want one! I really don't know what it is call but I think it is instant camera? (It was the keyword I searched in Google)

I heard that this brand (Polaroid) stopped manufacturing instant cameras and "film paper" something is harder to buy.

I want this kind of camera! Does anyone know where can I buy this and how much? Gawsh, it's awesome! I'm gonna add this in my wishlist. XD

Wanted

I've been craving for a lot of things latel. Well, here's the things I want to have right now. They're listed according to rank/ necessity, anyway.

1. New pair of wedges/stilettos/high-heeled sandals or shoes that looks somewhat like lolita shoes.

I really want to have a pair of lolita shoes. I don't know if the timing is good or bad, but my favorite high-heeled sandals should retire now.


My favorite pair of sandals. They both has cracks on the sides (encircled).

I bought those for our prom, and because I really have this ultimate liking for high-heeled sandals, that pair was my favorite (actually, almost all of my sandals/shoes are high-heeled). I've been using that always, even if I am just going to attend a practice or something. I'm pretty accustomed in using high-heels, 'ya know, so I feel comfortable using it.

Maybe because of my excessive use on that pair made it retire early. I have not noticed the cracks until my choirmates told me about it. Maybe that is why I'm a little wobbly lately whenever I'm using them.

Now, I can't use them anymore because the cracks on them make it uncomfortable for me to use them. So now I am back to my old, shabby pairs.

I'm looking for a new pair to replace the broken one. I did find nice-looking ones, but there no size that fits my feet perfectly.

Criteria for the would-be sandals/shoes:
* high-heeled (of course!)
* close-toe shoes are more preferable
* wedges are more preferable than stilettos
* something that looks like lolita shoes x)
* cute design. probably ones with childish ribbons : )
* fits in my small feet

Too bad I couldn't find something that I really like yet.

2. KHR DVD with episode 66 and up

I've been pretty crazy over KHR nowadays. I've finished the episode 1-65, watching it in the DVD a friend let me borrow. But she doesn't have the episode 61 above. T_T

I wanted to buy my own DVD and had already looked for one in the market nearby. But the one they only have is the volume 4 of the anime, which contains the spiode 125 and up. I saw a KHR volume 3 but the summary's English is awfully bad (there is even one character named "baun" who's probably Reborn ;__;), so it's more likely that the subtitle is bad.

3. "Notes notebook"

I need a new a spare notebook now. The "notes notebook"--which is where I write my leactures, notes, and scribbles--are pretty used up; there are only few leaves left. Second Grading has now started, and I need new "notes notebook" for that.

I want the one with the spiral on the top for easier use. MAybe I could find that in National Bookstore, but I just can't find time to visit the nearest NBS, which is in SM Tunasan.

4. Scapular

Just to remind me not to do something bad. : )

5. Lolita accessories (hair clips, trinkets, socks, or the like)

Because I am just going gaga over it.

6. Lolita dress, skirts, blouse; or something that looks like one

I want to buy and wear skirts now. Girly-girly? Nah. I just think that maybe a change in wardrobe would be awesome.

7. KHR accesories, stuff toys, or plushes

I saw these plushes in dA which made me squeal "Kawaii!" and made my eyes sparkle.

Top: Lambo, Reborn | Bottom: I-pin, Chrome
The problem is, I don't have enough money. Well, maybe I could afford few items, but not all. I need to save money for the others. T__T

Maybe I'll visit Festi this week to hunt for these stuff. Haha. =D

Exams and Other Random Things

Bloody exams are over. But I don't think I will get high scores for my First Quarterly Exams. For goodness' sake, they're hard. Plus the fact that I didn't even reviewed. Really, no kidding. I didn't reviewed my lessons. I just browsed my notes, but I couldn't call that as "review".

So yeah, I'm not hoping for high scores. I wouldn't be hoping for a 90 average this grading period. I was aiming for a 90 or something average this school year, but I have to say goodbye on that this quarter. I think I won't be the top 1 in our section this grading period. Not that I really hoped, but of course, I also wished that I will be.

The thing I am holding on is my recitations, and I just hope my teachers remember that when they start computing our grades. x)

Geez, I sounded.. greedy for grades. Gahaman na ba aco sa grades ngayon? Medyo siguro. Pero hindi naman aco bitter. Haha. Okay lang naman sa'kin kung merong mas mataas sa'kin basta karapat-dapat lang ang grades na ibibigay sa'kin, kuntento na aco dun. I'm just going to do better next quarter, I promise that. I'm promising that to you, blog, and I'm going to put that promise in here so I'll always remember it when I read this post. =D

**

After exams, Steni and I went to Jette's house. It was actually pre-planned. Ang paalam co nga kay Mama, may practice kami sa Music e. Haha. Ang bad co!

Ang arte pa nga nun ni Jette e, one week din acong inasar hindi na daw tuloy. Gusto lang sigurong magpa-kulit nun. Haha!

But Jette already bought the ingredients for the carbonara that we're going to cook days before kaya alam cong echos niya lang iyon. At sa hinaba-haba ng plano, kaming tatlo lang rin pala ang matutuloy. XD At si Alexa din, nasasama din pala.

Kaya kami-kami ang magkakasama nung uwian. Kaso, may meeting pa si Steni because she's a S4 in CAT, and I don't know if Jette has a meeting too. Sabi co kay Jette, mauna na kami para mailuto na yung carbonara, but we end up waiting for the two. Steni's meeting ended after a few minutes--mas matagal pa nga yung pag-ikot-ikot namin kaysa sa meeting nila--and Alexa told us to go ahead at susunod na lang siya.

After buying some few stuff, we headed to Jette's house. We cooked creamy carbonara for our lunch and toasted bread, then watch the American version of The Grudge 2.

Hindi nga masaydong nakakatakot e. Kami ni Jette natatawa-tawa lang sa palabas, si Steni naman super tili. Mukang ewan lang, tinatakot yung sarili. 8D

Nagkayayaan kaming pumunta sa Treats matapos manuod. Dahil nagpalit aco ng damit (maong pants + t-shirt), I couldn't wear my school shoes with those dahil ang jologs co naman. Steni borrowed the slippers of Jette's father, while I borrowed Jette's. At dahil malaki si Jette, I looked like a walking duck because of the big slippers.

Super init, grabe! Kaya naman nag-McFloat kami. And we discovered Jette's habit and we imitated him. Grabe, nakakahiya kami!

We went back to Jette's house and Steni played a computer game. We went home at 5:15. Haha. Ang awesome din ng araw co because I spent time with my new friends. : )

**

Last Monday, Ms. Bulilan (our Filipino teacher) saw me while we were waiting for Apple. Mag-uuwian na nun, e sabay-sabay nga kaming lumalabas ng school.

When Ms. Bulilan walked pass me, she patted my head (actually my bangs), and said to me, "Ang ganda pala ng boses mo, Ivy."

I smiled sheepishly at her. After thinking why she said that, I assumed she heard me sing in the mass last Saturday.

Wala lang, natuwa lang aco sa sinabi ni Miss. Kahit pa siguro nasabi niya lang 'yon out of nothing, the compliment made me smile.

I was actually thinking of "pursuing" my singing. I would like to join a singing contest or present in school or something. A lot of people tell me to sing on stage, but I always said that solo singing is not for me.

I am the kind of person who stands out in singing (or even in other things) when in groups. Pero 'pag aco na lang, wala na. Katulad na lang nung nangyari nung Foundation Day. Disaster talaga yung performance co dahil paos aco nun. I was really depressed after that that I almost swear I wouldn't sing again.

But singing is my life. This is God's gift for me. I know I am not as good as Regine Velasquez or what, but I am somewhat ggod in my own way. Though I use this talent in serving Him, I want this talent to grow. And I wouldn't let those failures serve as a hindrance. Though I am still scared, I want to try.

Hi Thar!

Hullo. Long time no post. : )

I just wanted to say that I am still alive. I have been not posting for.. two weeks. So unlikely of me, eh?

Well, I've been busy for the past weeks. I had lots of things to do *shot*, and my internet connection is so effin' annoying. It's so slooow, and the connection is reset almost every five minutes, plus it shows a message like, "certificate error". Hell, it irritates me to death. >__Click here to be directed to my WP blog. Some post are password-protected, but you could ask for the password from me thru YM or e-mail.

I've also been doing our section's Friendster and Multiply account. Please add us! Here's the link:

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I've been into series of troubles and mischief for the past few days, but I still don't have time to write it in here. But I will post my updates soon, don't cha worry!

My UPCAT is already on Saturday, and yet, I haven't really reviewed seriously. I'm not expecting to pass, though it will be good if I will. Gaah, I am just relying on stock knowledge and pure luck. ;__;

Gusto Kong Maging Teacher!

Let me enumerate the happenings of the day first, in KISS way (Keep It Short and Simple).

1. Mr. dela Torre made us repeat the praying of the rosary because there are lots of students outside the room even the rosary is taking place. And we received a lengthy sermon from him.

2. We had a quiz in T.L.E. I got 22 over 30. Nyah, it was still low. I'm not being greedy, I know that score was kinda okay, but I promised myself that I should get high grades this year. T_T

3. I reported in Filipino and Health. I did good in Filipino, I think, for my classmates and Ms. Bulilan said so. Though I'm not quite satisfied with myself in Health. I'll do better next time. :)

4. I forgot Honey's pocketbook on the room we used on Math time. So I went back to get it. Mr. del Rio was still in the room, doing something in the laptop. When I was about to go, he told me that the computer hanged, so I helped him to restart it. Hoho. I just feel kinda proud to help a great teacher. ^^

5. Mrs. Lopena didn't attend our class. I don't know if she's absent or what. But we didn't cared. We're too happy enjoying her absence to think about it. (We're bad, I know. XD)

6. We were asked to make a prayer during the Science time. It was actually a contest, but was held in the classroom. Too bad it's a group activity, again. Pero dinibdib co talaga ang paggawa dun ah. ;)

7. Sinisimulan na acong ulanin ng asar sa mga kaklase cong lalaki! Pero okay lang naman, sanay na aco sa pang-aasar. XD

Hoho. Short happenings of the day. Miracle I didn't elaborate it more. (You know how I love loooong posts.)

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GUSTO KONG MAGING TEACHER!

You heard it right. Believe it or not, I seriously want to be a teacher. Teacher, as in the person inside the classroom, standing in front of the students and teaching them.

It was my dream since I was a child. As a kid, I often play with my cousins that game. I am the teacher, while they are my students. I always find it amusing. Then I told myself, I would be a real teacher someday.



But I dismissed my childhood dream when I reached my later elementary years. I realized that I wouldn't be rich if I will become a teacher. And I want to be rich someday.

After dismissing my childhood dream, I didn't have any plans for the future. No plans for college, no plans for future career.

Maybe somehow, I'm maturing. Somehow, I'm mentally growing. Because I realized that it's not only the money that makes the world go round. I observe my "great" teachers' passion for their work, envision that it must be very accomplishing seeing your students after years, now successful people, all because of them.

Those kinds of feelings--being in front of the room facing students with different tantrums and personalities, sharing the knowledge you learned that could help them form their future, the bonding between the students and the teachers, being liked by the students and your work being appreciated--I wanted to feel those. And yes, I really do want to be a teacher.

I planned to take a computer or English-related course, but my main choices now are B.A. English and B.A. Linguistics. I could be a Religion or Computer or maybe a Filipino teacher, I think, but I excel more in English. Beside, this is my main interest.

I would be an English teacher. I would be like Mr. Luna, my "idol". Seriously, he is the teacher I wanted to be like. I want to teach the way he teaches, to be as great and as knowledgeable as him, if Heavens allows.

Looking at our "great" teachers--Mr. Luna, Sir del Rio, Ms. Bulilan, Ms. Rasdas, Ms. Rellosa, and the others--it makes me want to be like them. I look at them with such admiration and respect, and they are the persons I look up on. They are the persons I want to be in the future.

I also wanted to be like Mr. dela Vega, the only teacher--and perhaps, the only person--who really, truly believes in the things that I can do. I wanted to touch a student's life like what he did to me, wanted to inspire a youngster and uplift his or her spirit. Though he wasn't that "great" and a pretty much students were annoyed at him during his one-year stay in Liceo, he was different. No adult had ever believed in me the way he did, no teacher admired so much me as a student, and no person had ever made me a poem out of the little note he saw in my notebook. Yes, I'll give back that kindness to my future students.

But of course, I have my own insecurities and worries. What if I won't be as great as the teachers I admire? What if I won't be respected by my students? What if I will be like the teachers whom I am pissed of because they just babble a seemingly alien language in front? And what if won't be a teacher?

As much as possible, I don't want to turn away from the path of being a teacher. I don't want to loose my interest and my dream. And if ever I become one, I don't want to be added to the piles of incapable teachers who teach nonsense things and were despised by students.

So now, I'm already preparing my way and my plans. I'm practicing myself in speaking in front of the class, that's why I told myself to be good in reporting. I'm practicing speaking fluent English without stuttering. I'm studying my grammar, my communication skills, and anything I could do to prepare myself as a good teacher. I'm still not good at those, but I'll try to be.

Yes. I would be a teacher. A good teacher. I would contribute to a student's development. And as much as possible, I definitely want to teach in Liceo de San Pedro, my true home that had given me sanctuary. I could envision it, taste it like reality.

Walking down the corridor, a little woman wearing a teacher's uniform. Her face is exactly like mine, only the childish features were replaced by a mature angle. And I would see the persons who had been my teachers, walking the same corridor as I. I would nod and smile at them, greet them, for they are my co-teachers now. And I would enter a classroom--a Jurassic-like place with standing students and cackling laughter and flying crumpled papers. I would face them, face them with pride and they would be silent with my presence. I would look at them, a sea of young, immature, childish faces with grinning lips, and I would see myself in them--a high school student who was noisy and mischievous but dreams vivid, wonderful dreams, who admires great teachers and wishes to be like them.

My friends would see me, and they will say, "Uy, teacher ka na pala!". Who knows, I could even teach their children, or one of them will be a teacher, just like me.

Yes. This is what I want. Gusto cong maging teacher!!

I Suck at Titles

Oh yeah. I suck at titles.

Don't you just notice how plain and simple my previous blog posts are? Yeah, the titles aren't appealing.

T_T

Updates

I've been on hiatus here in my blog for the past few weeks again. Oh, I always check my dashboard for new entries in the blogs that I follow and always attempts to make a new blog post but I just can't write. Maybe I'm just too lazy to type. Hohoho..

So, what happened in my ordinary, boring life during those days? Here are the updates (random order):

* Mama had our computer reformatted. Finally! We gained our computer sounds and MS Paint. Our OS looked like Windows Vista, though the information in my computer says it's XP. Ah, whatever. But it has fewer themes and our Microsoft Office version is 2003. :( (But I borrowed an Office 2007 installer from Ayyah, though I haven't installed it yet.) Anyway, it's faster.. compared before.

* Our internet connection is pissing me off! It is so annoying! It always display "Page Load Error", saying that the connection was reset. WTF!? Oftentimes, a page's appearance is always in Basic HTML and the default character encoding is Unicode. And some of the images can't be displayed! It's so annoying! Nagta'tyaga na nga lang aco e.

* We started singing the Psalm in choir last week. I was the first one to sing though it's not as beautiful as everyone seem to expect from me because of so much nervousness and insecurities and they're all surprised when they saw me wearing a white blouse and long white skirt, looking so conservative and manang-like. They even teased me Aling Dionisa, deboto, and an Iglesia ni Kristo member. XD

* I'm starting to resurrect the online social networks I've joined and forgotten. As for now, I'm done with Multiply and Twitter and working on my LJ account.

* I'm getting into Twitter. I'm even planning to embed it here in my blogsite.

* I'm planning to change my blogspot layout. Yeah, I got tired it it easily. But I might need Kriselle's help (as always) and I'm getting shy to ask help from her because I know she's busy right now. And besides, I don't want to get into blog-hunting again. So I might just have to bear with it.

* I'm planning to revive my writing "career". In fact, I've joined various original fiction sites. But original fictions are still not popular, especially most of my online friends are fanfic writers.

* I'm getting sentimental these past few days. Especially because I'm getting into my senior high year. =/

* I think my eyesight is getting poor. Blame it to my computer addiction and reading even in with poor light. I think eyeglasses are cool if I'll just use them as accessories but not as a necessity!

*I'm pathetically in love with someone I shouldn't be in love with.

Did you just noticed that most of the updates in my life are mostly online-related? Yeah. I'm getting addicted with online stuffs. >__<

I ♥ Plurk

Nyaha! May na'discover na naman acong bago!

It's called Plurk, a free social networking and micro-blogging service that allows users to send updates (otherwise known as plurks) through short messages or links, which can be up to 140 text characters in length.

Updates are then shown on the user's home page using a timeline which lists all the updates received in chronological order order, and delivered to other users who have signed up to receive them. Users can respond to other users' updates from their timeline through the Plurk.com website, by instant messenging, or by text messaging.

-oha, the power of wikipedia!

Just look at the pink and brown box sa right ng blogsite co. That's my Plurk. Cute noh? Pwede ring i'edit ang color nian.

Nawiwili na nga aco sa kania e. Ang cute kase e. Wala lang, nakakatuwa.

Try nio! Tapos invite nio co as friend ah. chibivy ang name co.

Click here to try Plurk.

attention to my blog readers! please READ this!

takte, akalain mo yun, mai nagbabasa pala sa blog co??!!

post lang aco ng post dito e, akala co walang nagbabasa. meron pala.

di co alam kung dapat ba acong matuwa, o kung dapat co ba itong ika'alarma.

syempre, masaya aco dahil mai nagta'tiyaga naman palang bumasa sa mga happenings sa aking buhai'buhai.

kaya lang kase, dito sa blog co na ito nilalagai yung mga bagay na di co sinasabi ng harapan. bale, talagang literal na diary co na talaga halos ito. dito talaga nakalagai yung mga feelingss and emotions co, mga thoughts co. ganun.

at naaalarma aco dahil, hindi kaya napanghihimasukan na ang private life co?

kaya acoi maglalagai ng "rules" tungkol sa aking blog.(hahaha, kung anu'anong kalandian ang nalalaman e)

Rule #1:

eto ang pinaka'importante sa lahat. dahil nga nagsisilbi talagng diary itong blog(s) co, e sana naman, wag niong i'bulgar ang mga nilalaman nito. okay, ganito yon: kung ano yung nabasa niyo dito, sa inyo na yun, 'wag niyo nang ipangalandakan. pwede niyo naman acong kausapin tungkol sa blog co e.

example:

"uy ivy, malandi ka! anu yang nabasa co sa blog mo na chuva cheness eklavu??"

pero hangga't maaari ai sa'tin sa'tin na lang yun lalo na kung personal. hindi naman sa mai tinatago aco or what, ayoko lang talagang sa ibang tao nanggagaling iyong mga bagay tungkol sa'ken, gusto co sa sarili co mismo.

kaya 'wag niyo nang masyadong i'broadcast okay? pero kung napag'uusapan din naman ang tungkol sa mga ka'blog-an, edi okay lang.


Rule #2:

actually di naman talaga siya "rule", pwede niyong sundin o hindi.

eto lang naman yun: wish co lang naman e kung nabasa niyo ang mga blog entries co e mag'comment naman kayo.

duh!? paramdam kaya kayu! mai nagbabasa na pala sa blog co, wala acong kamalai'malai.

kaya sana naman, mag'comment kayo. dun sa mai mismong blog entry ah. halimbawa, etong blog entry co na ito ang nabasa niyo, sa baba nito, i'click nio na lang yung 0 comment o batsa yung ganun, at pwede na kayung mag'post ng comments kahet pa di kayo naka'register sa blogger.

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ayun. ayun lang naman ang aking mga kahilingan sa pagbabasa niyo ng aking blog. sana ay masunod, lalo na yung Rule #1.

salamat!!

*gonna start posting another blog entry again*

friends *

damn, i feel so... so annoyed with the people around me. and yet, i could tell them that they're annoying me already, to stop them what they are doing and saying to me, no matter how much i wanted to.

simply because i've got no chance to tell them.

and whenever i am speaking to these people, i forgot my irritation to them, i forgot what i am going to say to them.

i am not being plastik, honestly. the truth is, i am becoming the real me whenever i am with them. the happiness, the laughter, the smiles, the words. everything is real, genuine. not a single superficial action.

and the reason why i forgot everything is because all i could think of is how happy am i, how glad am i being with them.

because these persons are actually the ones i considered as real, loved friends, my most important persons.

damn, what should i do? damn damn damn.


END.

MMD (commonly known as Mutiple Mood Disorder)

kung kayo e nagtataka kung ano ba ang ibig sabihen ng MMD na iyon e wag niyo nang pag'isipen ang sarili niyo. hindi naman 'yan isang medical term e. actually, imbento co nga lang 'yang term na iyan e. =D

ilang araw co na ring status message sa YM ang *ish having mutiple mood disorder*. may mga nagtanong nga sa'ken kung ano na naman ka'ek-ekan ang naimbento co.

actually, totoo naman iyo at hindi ek-ek lang. dahil lately, grabe na talag ang atake ng mood swings co, nitong january lang iyon lumala e. super talaga, nakakainis na nga rin. one time masaya aco, tapos magiging annoyed, then makulet, tapos bigla-bigla na lang acong made'depress.

grabe, minsan talagang nakakainis na itong topak co. masayado na acong nagiging sesitive sa mga wala naman katuturang bagay.

pero kung titingnan mong maige, di naman talaga walang katuturang bagay iyong pinagse'sentir co. kase kahet maliit lang yung mga bagay na iyon e may anggulo na talaga namang ka'bwiset-bwiset. katulad na nga lang nung bote co na pinaglaruan nila morada nung isang araw. kahet simpleng bote yon e talaga namang nakaka'inis dahel gamit mo yun tapos pinaki'alaman di ba?

minsan din, iba't iba ang mood co na nararamdaman ng sabay'sabay. minsan kahet aco nako'confuse na din sa sarili co e. 'pag kausap co si ganyan masaya aco, kapag si ganito naman ang kausap co e nabu'bwiset aco. na'iinis aco kay ganyan pero kapag kaharap co siya e di co magawang mainis. minsan nga e bwiset aco pero bigla naman acong mapapa'ngiti kase mai naisep acong nakakatuwa, o kaya naman e jolly at magulo aco pero bigla'bigla na lang acong mananahimik.

dun sa forum na kasali aco, yung Imagination Unleashed (click niyo na lang yung link sa right para ma'visit yung site. oha! nag'promote!), e nag'post aco dun tungkol sa ka'abnormalan co. at katulad ng iba pang nakaka'pansin, may nagsabe sa'ken na siguro'y may "dalaw" lang daw aco.

nako! grabe talaga! natatawa aco kapag ganun ang sinasabe nila sa'ken. oo nga't babae naman aco at nagda'daan na din sa "pagdadalaga" (asus, kahet di halata!) pero di co tingin na mai konekshon iyon sa bagay na yon. di naman aco ganun dati e.

actually, okay, ganun aco dati pero di naman malala. at kahet naman wala aco nang nakaka'iritang pinagdadaanan ng babae kada buwan e the same pa din. so wala talagang konek.

hay. siguro tingin sa'ken ng mga tao e mai saltik na dahil parati acong tino'topak. grabe!

stupid, annoying multiple mood disorder! >,<

aah! i miss my blogspot!

kyaa! na'miss cong mag'post dito sa blog co ah. an'tagal nang di aco nakaka'gawa ng entry e.

panu kase, nitong mga nakaraang araw e nawili aco sa pagbabasa ng mga manga. Deathnote saka Kaichou wa Maid-sama ang binabasa co magpa'hanggang ngayon.

tapos nasira pa itong mouse namen. hay, dalawang araw tuloi acong di naka'onLayn. na'miss co ang aking onLine life ha! parang feeling co tuloi ang dame nang nangyari sa onLine world sa halos tatlong araw din na wala aco. =]

at dahil na'ipon na ang kwento co, wish co lang mailagai co yung mga 'yon dito sa aking blog. maghintai kayo at magta'tayp pa aco. =D

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Breaking Dawn! at last, you are mine!

sa wakas! meron na acong Twilight saga book! at iyon ay ang Breaking Dawn! *clap clap*

di naman siya brand new at paperback lang. hardbound na lang kase ng Eclipse at Breaking Dawn ang natira sa bookstores at 500+ at 700+ (respectively) pa ang isa. sao nagtyaga na lang aco sa third hand dahil in good condition pa naman.

kay ayyah co yun nabili, na nabili niya naman sa kaibigang nakilala sa internet. super tawaran to the max pa talaga kame. P415.00 kase original prize nun at nabili niya ng P250.00. binebentya niya sa'ken ng P250.00 ulet. syempre di aco pumayag. sabe co 200 na lang e ayaw. ayun, nabili co ng P225.00! haha! ang daya! X]

pero okay na yun, at least may libro na aco ng Twilight. actually, tapos co na yun, nung third week ng december siguro. e binili co na lang for collecting purpose.

at kahet ang gulo-gulo ng araw co, okay na din dahil may Breaking Dawn na aco!